All of this feels so wrong..

Daddy,
   I know that you had to go but planning this service feels so wrong. I still don't feel like you're gone. Wherever you are please look out for Kendra and me. We need you Daddy.. It isn't fair that you had to go. When I think of all the memories and things that we had I feel happy but I feel so sad because we won't be making new ones anymore. I know that I'll make it through this but right now it all seems so difficult and like it's all too much. I hope that you're proud of me for all this. I've had such a difficult time planning this service but I know that it's the right thing to do. You would've wanted other people to have closure whether it was what you wanted or not... Especially Kendra and me.. I love you for that. I love you for all the things you taught me and for always encouraging me. Please help me to know you're with me the next few days. I love you.

Little Bear