It's been a month today!

It's been a month today...

A month since I've heard your voice..

A month since I heard your stupid jokes...

A month since my sister has said your name...

A month since you've called...

A month since I saw you 'sleeping' so peacefully...

But not a day goes by that I don't think of you...

Not a day goes by that I don't want to call you...

Not a day goes by that I don't have a mind full of memories...

Not a day goes by that I don't miss you and wish you were here with me...

It may have been a month but not a day goes by that I don't wish this was all a bad dream..

I hope you're having a great time up there in Heaven..

I hope that I am making you proud of me...

I hope that you finally are happy...

I hope you'll forgive me for the selfish days I have...

I hope that you remember that I love you Daddy...

I hope that you will Rest In Peace and save a place for me...

Brittany Seree'

All of this feels so wrong..

Daddy,
   I know that you had to go but planning this service feels so wrong. I still don't feel like you're gone. Wherever you are please look out for Kendra and me. We need you Daddy.. It isn't fair that you had to go. When I think of all the memories and things that we had I feel happy but I feel so sad because we won't be making new ones anymore. I know that I'll make it through this but right now it all seems so difficult and like it's all too much. I hope that you're proud of me for all this. I've had such a difficult time planning this service but I know that it's the right thing to do. You would've wanted other people to have closure whether it was what you wanted or not... Especially Kendra and me.. I love you for that. I love you for all the things you taught me and for always encouraging me. Please help me to know you're with me the next few days. I love you.

Little Bear

When I think of you...

Dad,

When I think of you I'll always remember watching cartoons with you on saturday mornings.

When I think you I'll always remember you tickling me until I couldn't breathe.

When I think of  you I'll always remember the way that you taught me to give all I had even if all I had was love.

When I think of you I'll always remember your tattoos and how if you hadn't had them then you wouldn't have been you.

When I think of you I'll always remember the fishing trips and late night hikes on the camping trips...

When I think of you I'll always remember your hunting and fishing shows and your silly gun and knife magazines...

When I think of you I'll always remember feeding calves with you and catching bugs...

When I think of you I'll always remember the smell of your cigarettes...

When I think of you I'll always remember watching scary movies and pretending I liked them even when I didn't.

When I think of you I'll always remember you asking me if I was falling asleep on the couch and telling you no just because I wanted a little more time and the weekends went to quickly...

When I think of you I'll always remember you calling with useless information...

When I think of you I'll always remember how much you loved music and how I pretended to as well...

When I think of you I'll always remember that you loved to draw...

When I think of you I'll think of

But most of all...

When I think of you I'll always remember how much you believed in me...how you said I could be anything I wanted to be...

When I think of you I'll remember how you were always there to catch me if I happened to fall.

When I think of you I'll always remember how much you loved me...

When I think of you I'll always remember that you are watching over me...

When I think of you I'll always remember that no matter where you are... You'll always be my daddy...

Love,
   Little Bear



I love you so much Daddy. I wish you hadn't had to go but I know you did. Thank you for everything you taught me. I will make you proud daddy! I promise. I miss you so much!